when we finally kiss goodnight

mood: content
current album of choice: sufjan stevens - songs for christmas
currently: listening to sufjan, sipping hot apple cider from my favorite mug, and watching the gentle snow embrace the ground.

Yesterday was the first day of my ski season! Bogus Basin finally has enough snow and is now open. Since I have a season pass I only stayed for about three and a half hours but it was well worth it. A great day of skiing to say the least.

So this year my extended family on my fathers side decided that we wont be exchanging gifts this year. Last year they decided that we would just get a gift for one family a piece-which was lame since we had already purchased gifts in advance-and this year no gifts shall be exchanged. I really hate this idea. Its not like the gifts were much but that's not the point, It was always nice to see the effort that was put into finding something of need. Its just kind of frustrating to me that they think its not worth it or needed this year. For me the only way I get into the Christmas spirit is giving. Be it time, gifts, or just love, Christmas is about giving. It just feels wrong to so trivially do away with this tradition.

Its taken me a lot longer than usually this year but I finally feel the Christmas spirit. All it took was some snow, skiing, and service. It was worth the wait though because there is no other time of the year for me that compares to Christmas. It is my absolute favorite.

The only thing I don't like during the Christmas season is being away from loved ones. It is far worse than the rest of the year.

I hope you all are enjoying the season!

The Difference Between Medicine And Poison Is The Dose

Ive been listening to Radiohead a lot
I cried and threw up today
The thing I want most I'll never be able to have
I run because it momentarily quells the constant urge to scream
Im scared but don't know why
I spend money uncontrollably
I feel like im stuck