Bullet Proof

You wake up forenoon on a beautiful day between the night of summer and the the morning of fall. Everything is in its place and you have fallen back into the monotonous but comforting routine that comes when school starts and life is all back on schedule. Being youthful, healthy and vivacious death and harm do not even enter the gates of your thought.

At this pinnacle of perceived sanctuary from mortal laws a devastating disruption occurs. A mind dampening event to bring you back from a false security. Whether a disaster, a mental downfall or even a death of a loved one instantaneously induces personal reflection. Reality crashes back down on you with an avalanche of disbelief.

This has happened to me twice in the last to month, tragic accidents to people that i was close with at one time or another. Some of the time it has been hard for my mind to comprehend that someone i talked to just a week ago is now close to death or has a life-long injury now. The fragility of life is being impressed upon me.

At first it scares me to think that my life my not be as long as i would have planned and that everything might not go according to the itinerary i have set. That only lasts for a short time as i move on to thinking about what is not right in my life at the moment. I don't want to leave this terra firma with harsh feelings between a family member or pretty much anyone and myself. I don't want to die with out at least being headed in the direction of a my potential. I don't want to leave without telling those i love of that love i have for them. Basically i don't want to have spent my time here in waste.

If there is anything we can do to honor those who we are close to or even those we aren't it is to learn a lesson about life. Not only can we learn a great lesson but we have the chance to implement its practices in our life. This in my opinion is a great opportunity.

As a result of this i am really making it a goal to fix a few of the things in my life that aren't quite right whether big or small. I also pledge to try my best to keep nothing but good feelings in my relationships with my fellow man as much as possible. Hopefully in doing these things i may grow to be a better person.